When we're seeking God's guidance, sometimes we ask for confirmations. Well, at least I know I do. It's one of those things I think, as a human, that when you're inching toward a limb, you want to know that you should walk out onto it before you actually do.
However, sometimes confirmation comes in the form of an ouch. Especially if you've ignored a previous urging that was placed in your spirit. Then not only can confirmations be uncomfortable, so can the promptings to move forward.
I know I have been known to get comfortable in a situation that I knew was only supposed to be temporary. And when that happens it takes a certain level of discomfort to propel me forward. And I do believe that we have seasons in our lives and that things happen the way they do for a reason. But change is part of growth and really just part of life. Change is good. Resisting change and clinging to what we've become familiar with can be detrimental.
But back to confirmation...
Sometimes we ask for confirmation and in our minds what we mean is we want like some awesome thing to happen and that can be our confirmation. Confirmations don't always appear like that - sometimes they hurt. Maybe because it's unexpected? I'm not sure.
Slightly painful or not, I think it is important (once your emotions die down - and make no mistake, that can take some time) to take a deep breath and just say "Okay God. I knew this is what you were telling me and you have confirmed it for me. Thank you."
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Let it Go
There are some days when you get up and in the deepest part of your being you know it's going to be a rough one. You have no idea what lies ahead of you, but something in your spirit is telling you to pause and consider calling in. Every time I ignore that tug, I regret it. So you would think by now I would have learned not to ignore it.
But sometimes the real challenge in that moment (I believe) is to acknowledge that urging and to step forward into your day anyway.
Now because of my personal beliefs, I feel it is in the midst of that uneasy feeling that God is whispering "Trust me. I will not let you go."
As human beings it can be really easy in those moments when everything starts to go down hill at top speed, to beat ourselves up.
"Why didn't I stay home?" "How could I have made such a stupid mistake?" "Why can't I seem to get it together?" "What did I ever do to land myself here?" Because nothing is going "the way that it's supposed to."
But we live in a broken world. One that will never be perfect, no matter how hard we push for what's "supposed" to be. That ended with Adam & Eve in the Garden and until the end of time as we know it, this is the struggle we will face.
I think about it a lot actually. How we so easily get caught up in the way we know things should be. And I believe there's a very good reason for that. I think the way it was "supposed to be" is encoded in our DNA and if it wasn't, we might not understand the truth of our imperfection. For we are imperfect creatures.
But we are also beautiful to God - even with our imperfections - so much so that He gave us Jesus. The ultimate example of grace (getting what we do not deserve) and mercy (not getting what we do deserve). And we are supposed to strive to be like Him. To love like Him.
Which is of course impossible for us to ever reach that while we are in this flesh. But it does not mean we don't try. Because we should try to love like Him.
But back to "supposed to"...
In my own life I am at least three different kinds of NOT where I am "supposed to be". And it drives me crazy. I hate it. In part because I spend a lot of time and energy futilely trying to fix it quickly. But I am learning...
In the last three months I have begun to slow down. To breathe in the space I am in. And to attempt to move at a reasonable pace to where I would like to be. Sometimes the only road ahead takes us back to a place where we don't want to be. A place that feels like a step backwards. But (at least in my case) once I stopped for a minute and considered that it's not a step backwards because it's not exactly the same. I am not the same.
And that is important because it is a step toward understanding how to let go of "supposed to" and to move on to what "is". Which lends value to the world around us; helps us appreciate the blessings in our lives today. And that is a very good thing.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
But sometimes the real challenge in that moment (I believe) is to acknowledge that urging and to step forward into your day anyway.
Now because of my personal beliefs, I feel it is in the midst of that uneasy feeling that God is whispering "Trust me. I will not let you go."
As human beings it can be really easy in those moments when everything starts to go down hill at top speed, to beat ourselves up.
"Why didn't I stay home?" "How could I have made such a stupid mistake?" "Why can't I seem to get it together?" "What did I ever do to land myself here?" Because nothing is going "the way that it's supposed to."
But we live in a broken world. One that will never be perfect, no matter how hard we push for what's "supposed" to be. That ended with Adam & Eve in the Garden and until the end of time as we know it, this is the struggle we will face.
I think about it a lot actually. How we so easily get caught up in the way we know things should be. And I believe there's a very good reason for that. I think the way it was "supposed to be" is encoded in our DNA and if it wasn't, we might not understand the truth of our imperfection. For we are imperfect creatures.
But we are also beautiful to God - even with our imperfections - so much so that He gave us Jesus. The ultimate example of grace (getting what we do not deserve) and mercy (not getting what we do deserve). And we are supposed to strive to be like Him. To love like Him.
Which is of course impossible for us to ever reach that while we are in this flesh. But it does not mean we don't try. Because we should try to love like Him.
But back to "supposed to"...
In my own life I am at least three different kinds of NOT where I am "supposed to be". And it drives me crazy. I hate it. In part because I spend a lot of time and energy futilely trying to fix it quickly. But I am learning...
In the last three months I have begun to slow down. To breathe in the space I am in. And to attempt to move at a reasonable pace to where I would like to be. Sometimes the only road ahead takes us back to a place where we don't want to be. A place that feels like a step backwards. But (at least in my case) once I stopped for a minute and considered that it's not a step backwards because it's not exactly the same. I am not the same.
And that is important because it is a step toward understanding how to let go of "supposed to" and to move on to what "is". Which lends value to the world around us; helps us appreciate the blessings in our lives today. And that is a very good thing.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Time for Some Action
I've been thinking a lot about the future and the past lately. The pastor at the church I attend did a sermon last week talking about second chances, but in the bigger scheme of life. He also talked a lot about taking action instead of only praying about things and waiting for a tangible, obvious answer.
It is most definitely good to pray over something and to take time to think things through, but it is also important to take actions. And to take risks.
In my own life, I am realizing that sometimes in order to just cope with the current reality, I find myself putting a band-aid (if you will) on a problem that essentially needs a more drastic course of action. I also know I'm not alone in this predicament.
Today I was talking with a friend about how sometimes you have to just do something entirely different than whatever it is you've been trying. And while I have many moments where I wish I could pull up Google and ask it what to do next, I realize that I can't no matter how much I'd like to - I simply need to try something different.
Sometimes I think God leads us down a very non-traditional path to where we are heading so that we not only learn to trust, but so that we can actually see that all of our self-doubt has no foundation whatsoever. That we really can be or do so much more than we could ever dream or imagine.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
It is most definitely good to pray over something and to take time to think things through, but it is also important to take actions. And to take risks.
In my own life, I am realizing that sometimes in order to just cope with the current reality, I find myself putting a band-aid (if you will) on a problem that essentially needs a more drastic course of action. I also know I'm not alone in this predicament.
Today I was talking with a friend about how sometimes you have to just do something entirely different than whatever it is you've been trying. And while I have many moments where I wish I could pull up Google and ask it what to do next, I realize that I can't no matter how much I'd like to - I simply need to try something different.
Sometimes I think God leads us down a very non-traditional path to where we are heading so that we not only learn to trust, but so that we can actually see that all of our self-doubt has no foundation whatsoever. That we really can be or do so much more than we could ever dream or imagine.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Sunday, September 23, 2012
Message Received
I visited church with a friend this morning and heard something I so needed to hear, but didn't realize it. The sermon was on the story of Peter stepping out of the boat and walking on the water with Jesus (that's an enormous paraphrase by the way - see Matt. Ch. 15 vs 22-33).
Anyway...the pastor was talking about how in life so many times people stay in the boat so to speak, but how some people actually take a chance and step out on faith and get out of the boat - no matter what the result may be. Then he said that just by stepping out of the boat to begin with, we alter our future.
That caught my attention. I love the story about Peter walking on the water to Jesus and it came to mean more to me when I first moved out to Los Angeles. But after moving back to Texas...to make a long story short, I've struggled a lot with feeling like I took a leap of faith only to end up right back where I was to begin with, which is a place I couldn't stand to begin with (to be frank - and why mince words at this point?).
I never stopped to consider that, even if I can't see it right now, my future is not what it would have been had I not gone to California. I knew I was different, that I'd come into my own if nothing else, but I don't think I'd considered that the future I would like to see is still possible. And how I needed so much to hear that all was not lost.
It's interesting the way that God can prompt us to go somewhere, visit someone, or even check out a church at the exact moment when we're going to hear the sort of reassurance our soul is longing for the most.
The other thing this morning got me to thinking about is taking risks...
Sometimes we are called upon to look at our life - maybe a specific situation or just in general - and assess what (& occasionally who) we have in our life and if the "what" or "who" fits with who we want to be - or maybe more specifically who you know deep in your soul that you are despite your current situation.
Perhaps sometimes we are not simply called to step out of the boat. Perhaps we are called to jump ship when it's really a choice of thriving or drowning.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Anyway...the pastor was talking about how in life so many times people stay in the boat so to speak, but how some people actually take a chance and step out on faith and get out of the boat - no matter what the result may be. Then he said that just by stepping out of the boat to begin with, we alter our future.
That caught my attention. I love the story about Peter walking on the water to Jesus and it came to mean more to me when I first moved out to Los Angeles. But after moving back to Texas...to make a long story short, I've struggled a lot with feeling like I took a leap of faith only to end up right back where I was to begin with, which is a place I couldn't stand to begin with (to be frank - and why mince words at this point?).
I never stopped to consider that, even if I can't see it right now, my future is not what it would have been had I not gone to California. I knew I was different, that I'd come into my own if nothing else, but I don't think I'd considered that the future I would like to see is still possible. And how I needed so much to hear that all was not lost.
It's interesting the way that God can prompt us to go somewhere, visit someone, or even check out a church at the exact moment when we're going to hear the sort of reassurance our soul is longing for the most.
The other thing this morning got me to thinking about is taking risks...
Sometimes we are called upon to look at our life - maybe a specific situation or just in general - and assess what (& occasionally who) we have in our life and if the "what" or "who" fits with who we want to be - or maybe more specifically who you know deep in your soul that you are despite your current situation.
Perhaps sometimes we are not simply called to step out of the boat. Perhaps we are called to jump ship when it's really a choice of thriving or drowning.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Monday, September 3, 2012
Something Beautiful
I've experienced a kind of re-birth of hope lately. And one that I have to believe has come from God because all of the outside signs point to the exact opposite.
My favorite verse is one that I've leaned on a lot over the past couple of years especially - Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path." Perhaps it's learning to lean on that trust that actually has helped with the peace I have.
But there's another verse I love - Ephesians 3:20 "Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine..." and this verse has simultaneously given me peace and made me furrow my brow more than once.
The first time I heard this verse, or rather the first time it registered with me what it really said all I could think was really God? cause I can imagine an awful lot. And I have admittedly had moments particularly over the last couple of years where that question changed to are you really sure? cause I'm not sure what to imagine anymore.
But lately, somehow, things have shifted and I have what I can only describe as a sense of possibility again. And that is beautiful.
Perhaps God brings us down rocky paths knowing we're going to ask those questions and knowing also that if we hang onto Him, we'll arrive at a place where peace comes from the one thing we need most at that time.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
My favorite verse is one that I've leaned on a lot over the past couple of years especially - Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path." Perhaps it's learning to lean on that trust that actually has helped with the peace I have.
But there's another verse I love - Ephesians 3:20 "Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine..." and this verse has simultaneously given me peace and made me furrow my brow more than once.
The first time I heard this verse, or rather the first time it registered with me what it really said all I could think was really God? cause I can imagine an awful lot. And I have admittedly had moments particularly over the last couple of years where that question changed to are you really sure? cause I'm not sure what to imagine anymore.
But lately, somehow, things have shifted and I have what I can only describe as a sense of possibility again. And that is beautiful.
Perhaps God brings us down rocky paths knowing we're going to ask those questions and knowing also that if we hang onto Him, we'll arrive at a place where peace comes from the one thing we need most at that time.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
What's It Worth?
I've been thinking a lot recently about the price of happiness - and if it's one of those things where the price is different for everyone.
I was raised to believe that happy is a choice. One might infer from that statement that being happy - no matter what your circumstances may be - is a choice. Or that it's simply a matter of choosing to have a positive attitude and to be thankful for what you have. To be sure, I believe it is all of those things too. But there's something more...
For reasons too numerous to go into in this post, I've been thinking about how happiness being a choice might be more closely tied to other choices in our lives. Big ones.
Almost everyone I know believes they would be happy if they had more money and found "the right" person and I tend to feel that way too. But I'm beginning to wonder if we as humans have a tendency to stay stuck in one place (location, job, relationship, church, school, etc.) because when we made the choice to go into said space it was the best decision we could make at the time with the information we had. Then one day you wake up (literally and figuratively) and hindsight hits you like a ton of bricks.
Suddenly how your choices "should have gone" is so clear to you. You think "oh I should have..." fill in the blank. Gone to this other school. Majored in that other subject. Taken this other job. Kept dating instead of settling down. Changed churches the first time I felt this feeling. Saved more money instead of buying this or that. Left the first time he / she broke my heart. Run like hell in the opposite direction of where I am now.
I think the choice of happiness comes with what you do after your "wake up" moment. Do you take this new found clarity and stuff it into the back of your mind and let it morph from "aha" to a state of pain and misery.
Or do you take a risk? Do you start to ever so carefully consider "what if I did something different now?"
You might feel it's too risky - that you've invested too much time and energy into where you are now. Certainly, sticking some things out and changing your attitude can be helpful. And I'm not talking about the times when you just have a bad day, but something that consistently pokes at you and needles you whether you're focused on it consciously or not.
Sometimes just changing your perspective is enough. Other times you're challenged to step out on faith and tackle the thing that both scares and bothers you the most. It's that moment when you know that while the unknown may scare you, staying where you are is going to do so much worse. So taking the risk might be your shot at choosing to be happy.
If you're truly unhappy in your life, what price would you pay to change it?
Just a thought.
-Lisa
I was raised to believe that happy is a choice. One might infer from that statement that being happy - no matter what your circumstances may be - is a choice. Or that it's simply a matter of choosing to have a positive attitude and to be thankful for what you have. To be sure, I believe it is all of those things too. But there's something more...
For reasons too numerous to go into in this post, I've been thinking about how happiness being a choice might be more closely tied to other choices in our lives. Big ones.
Almost everyone I know believes they would be happy if they had more money and found "the right" person and I tend to feel that way too. But I'm beginning to wonder if we as humans have a tendency to stay stuck in one place (location, job, relationship, church, school, etc.) because when we made the choice to go into said space it was the best decision we could make at the time with the information we had. Then one day you wake up (literally and figuratively) and hindsight hits you like a ton of bricks.
Suddenly how your choices "should have gone" is so clear to you. You think "oh I should have..." fill in the blank. Gone to this other school. Majored in that other subject. Taken this other job. Kept dating instead of settling down. Changed churches the first time I felt this feeling. Saved more money instead of buying this or that. Left the first time he / she broke my heart. Run like hell in the opposite direction of where I am now.
I think the choice of happiness comes with what you do after your "wake up" moment. Do you take this new found clarity and stuff it into the back of your mind and let it morph from "aha" to a state of pain and misery.
Or do you take a risk? Do you start to ever so carefully consider "what if I did something different now?"
You might feel it's too risky - that you've invested too much time and energy into where you are now. Certainly, sticking some things out and changing your attitude can be helpful. And I'm not talking about the times when you just have a bad day, but something that consistently pokes at you and needles you whether you're focused on it consciously or not.
Sometimes just changing your perspective is enough. Other times you're challenged to step out on faith and tackle the thing that both scares and bothers you the most. It's that moment when you know that while the unknown may scare you, staying where you are is going to do so much worse. So taking the risk might be your shot at choosing to be happy.
If you're truly unhappy in your life, what price would you pay to change it?
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Monday, May 7, 2012
Wide Awake
I recently went on a mini vacation with some friends and have found myself analyzing the effects of said trip since then.
Ever suddenly feel like you've been awakened from a dream?
When I left California I was numb. I had to be. There'd simply been too much crap over the previous year and all I could do was shut off some part of my brain and just put one foot in front of the other. I packed my apartment that way, came back to Texas that way, accepted a job that way and have worked & functioned that way ever since.
You can only stay numb or shut off for so long. Then you begin to wake up. Waking up for me has felt frequently like a panic attack. Leading me toward the conclusion that I needed a break.
Perhaps some I've actually been moving toward this place for a month or so now, but vacation seemed to cement it.
I spent my vacation largely surrounded by creative people, frequently discussing movies, tv, art, music, etc. I also spent time with my cousin who is an artist and anytime we are together we seem to go on what might be described as creative binges.
It was as though a part of me went "oh yeah. I remember who I am. I was made for this."
Sometimes, when we've been hurt or when we are tired or when we've simply thrown our hands up and said "God I just don't know how to keep going forward," that's when God uses something we'd never expect to remind us who He made us to be. And to encourage us to get up and put one foot in front of the other. Only wide awake this time.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
Ever suddenly feel like you've been awakened from a dream?
When I left California I was numb. I had to be. There'd simply been too much crap over the previous year and all I could do was shut off some part of my brain and just put one foot in front of the other. I packed my apartment that way, came back to Texas that way, accepted a job that way and have worked & functioned that way ever since.
You can only stay numb or shut off for so long. Then you begin to wake up. Waking up for me has felt frequently like a panic attack. Leading me toward the conclusion that I needed a break.
Perhaps some I've actually been moving toward this place for a month or so now, but vacation seemed to cement it.
I spent my vacation largely surrounded by creative people, frequently discussing movies, tv, art, music, etc. I also spent time with my cousin who is an artist and anytime we are together we seem to go on what might be described as creative binges.
It was as though a part of me went "oh yeah. I remember who I am. I was made for this."
Sometimes, when we've been hurt or when we are tired or when we've simply thrown our hands up and said "God I just don't know how to keep going forward," that's when God uses something we'd never expect to remind us who He made us to be. And to encourage us to get up and put one foot in front of the other. Only wide awake this time.
Just a thought.
-Lisa
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